Widowed Songs : Unreleased & B​-​Sides (2009​-​2013)

by Michael Mazochi

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"Widowed Songs : Unreleased & B-Sides (2009-2013)" is a collection of material that was recorded for various albums and projects in the years mentioned. All of these songs were intended at one point or another to be heard. Some were even played live & some were lost in the fire...Literally or otherwise.

Tracks 1, 2, & 9 are from the one and only Widows album that didn't get released.
Tracks 3, 8, & 10 are demos recorded after that first Widows album was completed.
Tracks 4, 5, 6, & 7 are songs that originally were recorded for The Von Furs "Love & Taxidermy" album but didn't make it.
Track 11 is an orphaned song that was recorded just because.

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released April 23, 2014

All songs were written, performed, produced, and engineered by Michael Mazochi. Songs 1,2 & 9 were performed with The Widows.

The Widows were...

Michael Mazochi
Mike Miller
Tedd Buffa
Jake Blunt
Laura Bilodeau

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Michael Mazochi Los Angeles, California

Michael Mazochi is an eclectic songwriter and producer who is constantly striving to try new sounds while blending the old in new ways. Michael is tirelessly working to act as a mirror for our ever changing world. Whether the mirror is giving us a direct reflection of the times or some sort of warped fun house version of that reflection is a question that remains unanswered. ... more

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Track Name: My Own True Love
You said that you loved me and that you would let me know
You said that you’d leave me but that you wont let me go

And I could be my own true love you know
Said I could be my own true love you know

I dreamed you’d defeat me like some fallen soldier assured
I passed through your valley of death just to end at your door

And I could be my own true love you know
Said I could be my own true love you know
And I could be my own true love you know
Said I could be my own true love you know

Awake at the window of morning to see inside
Ill call you reflection ill call you the bastion of pride

And I could be my own true love you know
Said I could be my own true love you know
And I could be my own true love you know
Said I could be my own true love you know

You know
You know
You know
Track Name: Your Love, Forlorn
Does it break your heart to know you’ll end up alone?
Did you invite your ghost to find that no one was home?

And its hard you’ll find to learn to settle yourself
And if you fail, you put it on someone else
Its no way to be found at the table in mourn
Your love…forlorn

I saw you standing in shame you left your teeth in his sleeve
The words that used to come out were only aching to leave

And its hard you’ll find to set it all back in place
Just like the broken bones of ritualistic grace
Its no way to stand round, so press your lips to the horn
Your love…forlorn

Into the empty of age the signs are leading you here
A song to echo a sin, a wretch returns to the clear

And it’s the palm of your hand and on the tip of your tongue
You know the reasons are hid and that the fall has begun
So wash the blood from your hands and wipe the sweat from your eyes
Cant take the note from the song cant pull the boy from the child
Now tell true, what to do when all your pages are torn
Your love…forlorn

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when you awake pull the dead from the hold
the answers you find and a truth to be told
try just to love pull the dark from your eyes
and sleep now my dear
my dear
my dear
my dear
my dear
Track Name: I'm Your Man
If you need me, do you call out my name
When you want me do you shoulder all the blame

Oh and someday, someday
When you cry well ill be there

And you’ll know that im the one and you’ll be sure
That Im your man.

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In the aching of our hour left far behind
When im wasted, oh my god I need your line

Oh and when we, when we
When we bend until we break

Oh you’ll know that im the one and you’ll be sure
That im your man

If you’re losing, you should know I always win
Oh my trifles throw my tongue into the wind

Oh and someday, someday
When you cry well ill be there

And you’ll know that im the one and you’ll be sure
That im your man
Yes you’ll know that im the one and you’ll be sure
That im your man.

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Call out my name
call out my name
call out my name
wont you call out my name (4x)
Track Name: Always
Wake up, its not your fault
If im dead weight anyway
If its all clear, id like to lay here with you

Its our life, we can do what we want
Don’t let the bastards tell you how to cry
Cos youre my girl, ill protect you always
Always

I know its been on your mind
It broke my heart to know how hard you tried
And if I could you know I would take it away.
Take it away.

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And wherever you go I want you near
I need you by my side and to keep me here
Cos I love you more than this
And in that I can believe

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From small towns to the greatest of heights
Beneath the light of all you did for me.
If it means that, it could make me stay.

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And wherever I go I want you near
I need you by my side and to keep me here
Cos I love you more than this
And in that I can believe
In that I can believe
I can believe
Track Name: Lost On You
Baby would you ever tell me if maybe
I could be the hero tonight
And would you ever show me the way

Honey it doesn’t mean a thing to me
Money it doesn’t give a damn for you
So would you ever show me the way

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And my obsessive eyes are lost on you
Lost on things I do not say or do

So put your lights out honey, the lights out your money honey
Your little friend will get you when you never could expect it honey.
Lights out honey, the lights out your money honey
Your little friend will get you when you never could expect it

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Baby let me take your little hand
Maybe you’ll show me how to be a man
If I could ever notice the change

Honey for all the things you do to me
Funny im such a stubborn fuck for you
I think im gonna notice the change.

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And my obsessive eyes are lost on you
Lost on things I do not say or do

So put your lights out honey, the lights out your money honey
Your little friend will get you when you never could expect it honey.
Lights out honey, the lights out your money honey
Your little friend will get you when you never could expect it

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Baby would you ever tell me if maybe
I could be the hero tonight
Track Name: Follow Me Down
Time goes by and hardly seems to care
My friends are getting hitched and Im invited to their celebration

Trying to find the time to pull ahead
But im tired and barely able to sit down at the table

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And I don’t know what to do
But if you’ll follow me back down

I would love you like no one’s ever loved before

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So here I am im standing at the door
Of a girl I fell apart for and apart from what is mine

And oh my god how can I be afraid
For one who should deserve the world to tie my hands to just one girl

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And I don’t know what to say
But if you’ll follow me back down
And turn your heart around

I would love you like no ones ever loved before

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So please don’t put me down or be confused
Im a mess so please excuse me but it doesn’t mean I love you

Any less?
Track Name: American Blood
Just one more night, for my American blood
You never know just where you’re going
Until you’re coming back

If you could pierce my heart well I could be your romeo
So many times I tried to let it lie
And I cant help but try.

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And I don’t ever want to leave
When I feel like there’s work to do
But sometimes you lay it on the line
Just to see what you’re made of

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Yeah I miss my home, there’s my mother in the yard
When they say “you cant go back”
Well I say “whats lost is gone”

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And I don’t ever want to leave
When I feel like there’s work to do
But sometimes you lay it on the line
Just to see what you’re made of

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And love is still the way
To mend a broken heart
If love is still the way
Then mend my broken heart

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Maybe we’re just scared. Maybe im just throwing stones
But I know you lay it on the line
Cos “love” is the only word I do believe in
Track Name: Cold Room Blues
I don’t know why. I don’t know when.
I don’t know why. I don’t know when,
you had to go

There’s trouble down beneath your breast.
There’s trouble down beneath your breast.
You’re gonna leave me

Oh but if Jesus cant save me, Lord I don’t know who will.

I don’t know where, Which way you’ve gone.
I don’t know where, which way you’ve gone,
So on I roll

They laid you down to take your rest.
They laid you down to take your rest,
And speak no more

Oh but if Jesus can’t save me, Lord I don’t know who will.

I feel the dirt upon my feet.
I feel the dirt upon my feet.
I’m coming soon.
Track Name: Does It?
You can lose your mind
Or you give it away
You can trade in your words
For what you wanted to say

You can break your heart
Or I can tear it in two
I can turn it around
But it’ll never be anew

Take your time don’t it feel strange to rearrange
Don’t you leave it on the shelf
Someday you’ll know that its impossible
When the fall comes to your door don’t you fret for more
Don’t let fear win over heart
Boy don’t you know that’s impossible

You can lie through your teeth
Or play a fool in the night
You can wake with a ghost
Or a bird in the light

You can build your walls
Build em up to the sky
You can press your luck
To see over the rise

Take your time don’t it feel strange to rearrange
Don’t you leave it on the shelf
Someday you’ll know that its impossible
When the fall comes to your door don’t you fret for more
Don’t let fear win over heart
Boy don’t you know that’s impossible

And it’s a deafening sound
In the pale light of the moon
Listening…shh…waiting around
Knowing something’s gonna be happening soon
Track Name: Ribbon
Take the ribbon from your eyes
Untie your sorrow from mine
And you were the pretty one
‘til your skin once turned to brine
so don’t tell me that everything is fine

covet your trials for sirens
crucify your honor for thieves
and you were the martyred one
‘til your hands were turned to thyme
so don’t tell me that everything is fine

I cant wait for tomorrow
To sing sorrow from the wake
Skin my teeth for another
Oh I hope you’re ok.

But your arms were mournful and tender
As our vows slipped softly to the floor
And you were the only one
Til true love found your front line
I guess true love ain’t that hard to find
Track Name: No Place To Go
Father help me understand
And pull forth a coin from my hand
To buy me resistance to the failures of men
Father help me understand

Brother don’t break my heart so
Id trade in this sunshine for snow
And a day in the world before she had to go
Brother don’t break my heart so

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With no place to go back to now
No place to go back to now
No place to go back to now
That I have no place to go back to now.

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Lover don’t trouble your dreams
With thoughts of what it all might mean
Id trade you my soul for the stitch of your seams
Love don’t trouble your dreams

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With no place to go back to now
No place to go back to now
No place to go back to now
That I have no place to go back to now.

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And mother don’t count out in loss
Space between the shadows on the cross
If Jesus was a sailor then from the sea he was tossed
Mother don’t count out in loss

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With no place to go back to now
No place to go back to now
No place to go back to now
That I have no place to go back to now